I read a lot about mental clarity, which I've been feeling that last few days, but it has opened a whole flood gate of emotions that I feel like I've gotten really good at supressing over the years & it's been really overwhelming. I almost start crying at any time & just wondered if this has happened to anyone? I think that I've used food/drinking/smoking as a way to not deal with things. I'm not sure yet if I like feeling this way..it's made me bring up a lot of things from the past.
Oh man… I can totally relate to what you're talking about. I've been going through this sort of thing recently too. I tried being 100% raw vegan for a few weeks and the flood gates opened, outpouring emotions left and right. I was totally overwhelmed and could hardly function in daily life.
I still do think raw vegan is the best diet for my body, but I think that I need to ease into it slowly, allowing myself to notice when I lean toward a food to deal with an emotion. It's helped me open my eyes to seeing exactly how much I would numb myself using food. I'm currently eating more cooked foods, and still a lot of raw, but when I choose to eat cooked food, I'm bringing a lot more awareness into why I lean toward eating the cooked food. I feel that I need to let the emotions release more slowly—at a comfortable pace so that I can learn what they need to teach me.
Be gentle with yourself, and don't push yourself into doing something too quickly. Our emotions can often be overwhelming when we're pushing too hard in one direction. While I do think it's important not to entirely cover over the emotions, I don't think it's possible to learn what we need from them when we're entirely overwhelmed by them—we need balance. You can't rip away caterpillarness—so don't try to force anything on yourself that you *think* is where you should be. Accept where you are at, and just keep moving.
I was using EFT for a long time before I made radical changes to my diet, and I still had to go through a bit of emotional detox too. Be patient and be good to yourself. :) Try some EFT, it might give you a bit of relief to clear some stuff out quickly. TAT (Tapas Accupressure Technique) works well too.
Marcell, this is how i transitioned and it seemed to work well for me. Looking back on it makes good sense, too.
SAD(albeit with some organic food)-->vegetarian-->vegan-->raw vegan(no fat limits, all the salt, spices, etc I wanted)-->raw vegan w/no condiments, salt, or oils-->raw vegan w/simple meals, (almost)proper food combining, and no additives-->80/10/10, low fat raw vegan,mainly fruitarian
At each transition look two steps beyond. Ex. when transitioning from SAD to vegetarian keep vegan as the end goal in your mind. Enforce vegetarian as a strict rule, while forgoing dairy more flexibly. Like if your given the choice take the vegan one, but don't stress if you don't have the choice or if you're really craving something(besides icecream--cause your probably craving the sugar so eat some fruit!) Then when you feel cmfortable as a vegetarian, enforce vegan as a strict goal and keep raw vegan in mind. It makes each transition easier.
This is just what I've found, but some people do great going cold-turkey. And if that's you: more power to ya!