After losing 130 pounds and becoming healthier than I've been in my entire life, I fell off the wagon and have gained 30 pounds. I'm sick to my stomach about it. It's my own fault. No one stuffed this process dirt and sugar down my throat.
You know how some of us lose hair while detoxing? Okay, mine never grew back, and so now it's so thin you can see my scalp unless I'm really careful about styling it. I'm not the kind of woman who has ever done things with the hair. I'm used to being very natural with my frizzy curls, and now I'm hysterical when I go out to market. It's stupid, and I'm sure it's not from the raw diet. It can't be.
I've lost it from my head and body on and off since I was 13, but I know it's not that disorder where people loose all their hair(can't spell it), because the loss I have is diffuse, not in patches. Well, it's mostly on one side. Go figure.
Anyhow, I really lost my mind about the stupid hair. I also started to have pain in my knuckles and toes again, really bad this time. This is also something I've had problems with for over 20 years, but I never bothered to see a doctor for it. A few months ago, I was finally diagnosed with Psoriatic Arthritis, but I don't understand why it's so bad! My tendons in my hands and arms swelled so badly, I couldn't hold a glass. Try wiping your butt when you only have a claw.
The hair is distressing for a reason to me, but it's ridiculous, so I won't bother whining. It's just . . . I don't know how to say it. It's the only thing my ex left me with that made me a woman:***(
I was really being a good girl on the raw diet! I loved the lifestyle and I love you guys. I don't understand the hair loss and the horrible arthritis attacks, and if it's detoxing, why won't it go away? It's been over three years since I started.
Most of all, I am just disgusted with this weight gain, because I did it in ONE summer, and I did it by eating pure filth. I can't believe I am doing this to myself. I never gain weight like a woman. I gain it in my belly. I look like a pudding.
On the brighter side, I finally managed to move to Chicago:-D
